Today..

Boss summoned. Went through her presentation with me & nagged at my "slowness" in learning the software & also in my work. Told her of my feeling of inadequacy but she claimed she didn't want to hear of it! She felt that it's because I lacked passion & motivation for my job. She put it very "nicely".. She said the learning & training of the software will be a challenge for me. Haiz.. Always like that one :( Well, at least I must say she's been really patient at times. But the other day when she "fed" me with her "cat noodles", it was really nasty & harsh. Very difficult to swollow..

Then later in the evening, something "shocking" happened. All these years, we have never seen her scold SH. But it happened today. Over some "issues", she actually raised her voice, yelled & eventually gave SH a big fat scolding. She mentioned that SH was rude to her. She asked for an apology but SH felt she wasn't in the wrong. First time we saw SH cried. Really bad. Seems that it was over some "politiking issues" & she felt "betrayed" by her.. Hmmm.. Haiz.. Well, there's always a first time..

Eventually the matter was sorted out between both of them. SH felt she was being made a fool by "some people" who were "playing politics" so she was indeed upset. She felt boss was totally justified in giving her that scolding. She was more upset over the company rather than the scoldings.. Wise gal!

Bible Study Fellowship - 1st lesson

Attended 1st lesson tonight. Actually still wasn't sure if I will like it. Will give a try.

Was unwell this morning so was contemplating whether to take mc. Had gastric attack in the night again. Finally decided to take halfday to go see doctor. She felt that I should go for a scope as I told her that even with the medication I still get the attacks. She suspects that I may have other problems, like gall stones. Boo to her!

Boss had an issue with me taking leave on Mondays. Whatever leaves! And she emailed to tell me that "she is serious" about this. She was actually on mc today too!! Sigh!! I really 人在江湖 now lor.. Her mouth big, my mouth small lor :(

Anyway, went back to work in the afternoon & thereafter decide to go to BSF class. As it was the 1st lesson for our group, there was no discussion. Just some intro to the system by the discussion leader & a getting-to-know you session. They are extremely orderly & systematic. Boss says they are "disciplined". Well, whatever..

Meet Brittany Cheung

Another compatible TV couple. They have such a cute little baby.. She is really a "little Esther".

Updates

~ Someone from BSF called me on Wed to inform me that they have a place for me. Think I will take on this bible study course afterall.

~ Really having problems disciplining "some of my staff". Contemplated quitting many many times. Didn't think I'd have problems managing this bunch of people but I guess I was wrong. Majority of them are ok but I think my main problem is really with my boss. As long as she continues to run it in this manner, I will eternally have problems.

~ Feeling totally drained by my projects. Initially felt they were challenging & satisfying but of late have been encountering one problem after another. The issues on hand are very exhausting if I want to solve them (i.e. if they can be resolved at all!). In my present plight, I really don't think I have the energy to handle my job. I'm too stressed by my personal affairs to do well in my present job. But I also can't go without a job. Really don't know what to do.

~ Recently I've been suffering from gastric attacks rather frequently inspite of medication. Quite irritating. Started with getting it in the middle of the night but this week I'm getting it even in the day, after meals! Wonder if something is really wrong with my stomach. Perhaps I should get my doctor to recommend me for some kind of gastric/colon examination.. Plus, I'm also having cramps on my legs these days. It "crippled" me. The pulling pain was so excruciating that I couldn't even walk. I had that on my right leg, all the way to my toes, last weekend & my right shank muscle still hurts now. Also don't understand what's happening.. Lack of calcium? Hmmm..

Hehe.. Stole this pix from Chilam's blog. That litle hand, I assume, is his baby' s. It was simply too irresistable so I decide to "steal" it. Hope I won't be sued by him for this. Afterall, it's a happy occasion :)

Perhap · Love .. again!

如果 · 爱
Yes, watching it now. It's on Channel 61. Think I will enjoy it. Can't remember how I felt the first time but today am kind of ready for this type of movie. Moreover, both Aniki & ZhouXun looked soooo gooood. The minute I heard them sing, my heart simply melted :)

今天吃了一特大碗的猫面！味道真是糟透了！！

Bible Study Fellowship

Last minute on this evening, boss made me accompany her to her BSF class. It's the 1st class for this year & she has changed the venue so didn't know the way there. So I had to sit in for the "intro" class.

Had wanted to read up on Romans lately cz pastor had been quoting quite a bit from it. Coincidentally it seems this BSF course will be studying on Romans for this entire year. Well, it seems normally every year they do not have vacancies but somehow this year they do. So I registered to see if I could make it.

Really not sure if I want to attend as this course is for 7 yrs & regular attendance & active class participation are the basic criterias. We'll wait & see if they have a place for me first.

Verse of the Day..

“Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.”- Galatians 6:7-8

Meeting with the staff

Had a meeting with the staff yesterday. Think it didn't go too well. Didn't go down too well with some of them. Didn't look too happy & not much response. Those who responded were rather negative. Some even reacted rather rudely. Haiz.. Should have prayed first :)

Pastor's Saturday SMS

Lat Saturday & today -

Jan 13 -
"In Christ you can overcome all things (Phil 4:13) & overwhelming victory is yours (Rom 8:37). You are empowered for success."

Jan 20 -
"You are the Head & not the tail, above & not beneath (Deu 18:13). You are blessed coming in & going out (Deu 28:6).

What an irony to my previous posting.. 天大的笑话，莫大的讽刺！

1000th posting

This is officially my 1000th post. Since I started this blog in January last year, I've been faithfully blogging. But seems I'm running out of ideas & mood to continue. Why? It's really obvious..

2006 has been a really bad year for me. Never did I ever imagine that it would end up this way. Lost my job, lost my cats, lost my faith, lost my friends, lost my health, mum fell down, sis got hospitalised.. etc, etc, etc..

Some people say - When it hits rock-bottom, it will always bounce back. I have yet see this happening in my life. Ya, perhaps it hasn't reach it's bottom yet hor? Sigh! It seems the pit is getting deeper & deeper yet.. I think I am just about to reach H.E.L.L. soon. Don't be mistaken.. I don't mean the place where satan lives. I meant -
HOME,
EVERYTHING,
LIAO
LIAO.
Well, the idea's the same lah..

Aren't I funny.. My sense of humour is fantastic. Filled with overflowing sarcasm..

Wonder if I'll fall any deeper in 2007.. Ya, me & my wonderings again :)

A Baby Boy!

Sooooo happy for this ex-colleague of mine. Found out a couple of days back that she had a baby boy some time last month. She didn't even mention that she's pregnant the last time we met! And now she tells me that this Saturday will be her boy's 1st month!!! Good grief! Some people really one kind. Hahaha.. It's okay lah.. Jz feel extremely happy for her.

Naughty stomach

Had gastric attack again so did not manage to go to office today. Also didn't go see doctor :(

Went back to work on 2nd half of the day. Left office at 7.30pm. Tragic - halfday wasted!! Had so many problems with the Philippines. Sigh! Aren't these people job-proud? Really dunno what to say. Got all my gastric juices churning more profusely.. Hehe..

Hmmm.. Jz wondering how's that girl who had the accident the other night. Contemplating calling 995 again to check on her whereabouts.. Oh, what a busybody I am.. 自身难保 already still want to care about other people's business.. Good grief!

An accident..

Was on my way home from work. While crossing the road after I alighted from the bus, I saw this girl lying on her chest on the kerb of the road, sobbing. She was lying right in front of this metal chain.. the ones that block vehicles from entering.. Guess she probably tried to cross it, tripped & fell on her front. She was in her jogging gear.

I approached her & to check what's happened & I noticed there was quite a bit of blood.. Sigh! Me so scared of blood, immediately my knees went all wobbly. Called the ambulance at 10.40pm. Passers-by started to stop, asking if help was needed. We managed to get her home phone number & informed her family members. A kind samaritan actually helped her to clean up after noticing that she can sit up. Sorry I was of no help cause really scared of the blood. Kept chasing the ambulance though.. Apparently, stupid ambulance driver ended up at the carpark at the back of the block when I distinctively told them we were along the main road, opposite the market!! IGNORAMUSES.

Her family members even arrived before the ambulance. Had to give the paramedics instructions to get to us! The ambulance finally arrived at 10.55pm. All in all, it took them 15 mins to get to us when they could have arrived in less than 10 mins (which they did but at the carpark)!

That poor girl was sobbing so hard & when her family arrived, it seems the father was trying to ascertain her injury by feeling her joints & she started wailing much much more.. We kind of gathered she probably dislocated her jaw as well as her elbow.

Once I saw everything was in place, I took leave. Many were still hanging around to watch.

My Real Age

Haha.. End Oct I took this online test that says my real age is 58.3 & I was thinking - Gee, that's bad. But that was just after I started on this new job, plus my cat just died. So after 2-and-a-half months, I thought I should try the test one more time. Guess what? I've aged another 4 yrs!! Now I'm supposed to be 62.4! Gosh! Really must do something to be "younger". Let today be the day to start. Afterall, there's no time better than NOW :)

Resolution after "Boss' Lecture"

• Be punctual at work
• Take regular meals
• Start exercising
• Be more conscious of time in the office - work faster & try to leave on time
• Pray to God on everything - talk to Him like the way she talks to me

Upgrade..

My Print Sup

Had a nice chatting/sharing session with her. Found her to be an extremely wonderful girl. At least I found someone who's genuine in the dept :)

On Wed nite, both of us stayed back & chatted till around 1.30am! I found out that many of them actually are smokers! Good grief! These young girls!! But I really think she's a really sweet girl.

卡拉OK

Yes, today got company function again! Ying-jie went round telling everyone that our dept is doing so well that we have been out eating & celebrating so often. Hahaha.. Entire dept went K-Box for karaoke from 3-7pm.

I think the girls really enjoyed themselves. A few of us were extremely busy going from room to room.. like GROs.. Haha.. I didn't sing a bit. But boss said I must "sit with my girls" so that's why I feel that the entire exercise is so "political".

Got home around 8.30pm. Exhausted!

Oh, btw, this function is due to our AP countries performing so well that we were given USD500 as incentive so it's meant for entire dept to "celebrate".

Lateness..

Have been late for the umpteenth time getting to work.. Lately worsened by all those gastric attacks in the middle of the night. Today got in at 10.30am! Actually wanted to take MC but because there's a lunch appointment with client, I decide to go to office even though I was grossly LATE! Then I got it from the boss.. Definitely saw it coming.. Nag, nag, nag, nag.. Good thing she wasn't scolding.. just nag, nag, nag.. said I'm pampered, spoilted, immature, wilful, etc, etc, etc.. with all good intentions. She's a darl.. What more can I ask for.

And she has decided to confirm me earlier inspite of the fact that she's not so satisfied with my performance. Gave me so many 5's & yet got an overall score of 3.5 :(

Gastric Attack..

Have been suffering from gastric pains rather frequently lately, especially in the middle of the night. Took time off today, or rather yesterday, to see doctor. Got scolding from her.. Hahaha.. Said I ill-treat my stomach. Confused it so much that's it's malfunctioning now! But amazingly, my BP is still so well-controlled - 126/80. Fantastic! She's finally land-up with this wonderful combination.. Invincible combo.. Regardless of my stress, lack of sleep & poor health, it's still within the "normal" range. Fantastic, right? Even my GP wants to know the "secret recipe" now. Hohoho..

But I really did put on quite a bit of weight though. Heavy heavy man.. Sigh-sigh.. Dunno how to lose my weight without depriving myself of all the delicious supper :) Glutton-at-work now! Hehehe..

Probation..

Ya, I'm still on probation. Apparently now I'm not good enough :(

When I started in Sept, I found out that I was put on 6 months probation! Surprise, surprise.. But they told me that that's company practice, quite normal. Well.. During this period, I just need 2 weeks' notice to tender. After confirmation, I will need to give 2 months' notice.

Then in Dec, my boss suddenly suggested pre-confirming me. Wanted me to tell HR that she's so pleased with my performance that she wants to confirm me sooner. Taken by surprise, I kind of turned her down, stating the resignation period as a reason. She didn't take this rejection well.. Haha..

Yesterday, she asked me to appraise myself. Then she said I'm really not that good, as in, what I'm good at, I'm really very good & she's very pleased. But other than that, she thinks I'm not good enough, in many other areas, for an early confirmation. Ha! Que sara sara lor.. Whatever she says lor.. Haiz.. Afterall, like she always says..
SHE IS THE BOSS :)

Amazing..

that this guy is being liked by sooooo many people.. Wonder how many ardent fans he has out there?? I gather most of them are females & they pretty much dislike Carina. Hahaha..

'Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit,'
says the LORD Almighty. '

Psalms 145:3-4

Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;
his greatness no one can fathom.
One generation will commend your works to another;
they will tell of your mighty acts.

The Greed of Man 大时代

我的生命我的爱　　谭咏麟　
　　　
如此年代满障碍 如此时候预计将来　　
骤眼望几许悲几许得失 逝去不再　　
而我更要你每分支持与真爱　　　　
天 望透了千秋世代　　
就算是谁渐老也下台　　
爱与希望又偏偏不息万载　　
流向每一点生命更可爱　　　　

人海能遇太意外 人生回望像戏一台　　
若要是走不开且抛不低 让我主宰　　
唯有是你的生命你的爱
天 望透了千秋世代　　
就算是谁渐老也下台　　
爱与希望又偏偏不息万载
流向每一点生命更可爱　　
而我更要你每分支持与真爱

Watched this series recently on TV. Fell in love with the theme song all over again :)

walao.. 掉眼镜！

I am totally wrong (again!).. Good grief! Leon didn't come in top position leh! He's 2nd runner-up leh!!! I over-estimated him.. & I under-estimated Andy Hui. Hahaha..

The champion was this girl called 文佩玲。Yes, I thought her name sounded familiar but there is no sight of her in the entertainment circle now so I really didn't think she would be the winner. Hmmm.. No sustaining power. Haha..

Results:
Champ: 文佩玲
1st runner-up: Andy Hui
2nd runner-up: Leon Lai

哈哈哈哈。。。

HK's 5th Talentime

Watching the 5th Talentime now. Jz saw Leon Lai & Andy Hui. Good grief! Looks like these 2 probably will top the contest that's why they are still around now :)

Let's recap -

Champions
1st talentime: Anita Mui (now: dead)
2nd talentime: Lui Fong (now: Carol Cheng's boyfriend)
3rd talentime: Dicky Cheung (now: actor)
4th talentime: Alex Toh (now: singer/actor)
5th talentime: Leon Lai (now: singer/actor) - Actually the show hasn't ended but I guess as much he would be the champ; how else would he be able to stick around for so long :)

Other known participants
3rd talentime: Gallen Law (actor), 阮兆祥 (TVB artiste)
4th talentime: William So (singer?)
5th talentime: Andy Hui (singer/actor)

月份牌

Does anyone know what a 月份牌 is? I'm a Cantonese so I've said this a million times. However, it's always been "verbal". I've not seen it in the written form. Fascinating when you realised that it's actually written in this manner.

A 月份牌 is the calendar. We called it 日历 or 月历 in Chinese.
Cute, ya?

Pastor's Sat sms

No evil can damage your life in Christ. His good plans cannot be twarted by the enemy (Isaiah 54:17). Be tenacious & keep on in His good path.

Brother called finally..

Well, at least he called mummy to 报平安。Told her that it's very cold there. But he should be back around CNY so we kind of imagine it's jz a short short trip.

Be appreciative..

Sigh.. Yes I should be..

tickle..

Terok was travelling in a crowded bus. He was carrying the passport-size photograph of his son for college admission.

Accidentally, the photograph drop down from his pocket. He started searching for it frantically & found it on the floor below the ends of a woman's saree. He asked her, "Can you lift your saree? I wanna take photograph"....

THE REST IS HISTORY

He was beaten so badly that he had to be admitted to hospital. He was suprised to see Butol on the next bed to him in a worse condition.

Butol explained what happened to him. He had gone to a remote village to work. He finished late & missed the last bus. He couldn't find any hotel nearby. So he approached a nearby house & asked the Owner whether he can stay there for a night.

The Owner replied "I have 2 grown-up daughters. Sorry, you can't stay here".

Then he approached the next house & asked the Owner whether he can stay there for a night.

The Owner replied "I have 3 grown-up daughters. Sorry you can't stay here".

He went to the next house & asked "Do you have grown-up daughters", the Owner asked "Why?" ...Butol replied "I wanted to stay for a night".

THE REST IS HISTORY

The moral of the story is : WORDS GET YOU INTO DEEP TROUBLE IF YOU DONT USE IT CORRECTLY .

~ fwdd by colleague ~

Shanghai-a-going..

Brother leaving for Shanghai this morning. Seems like the flight will be at 7+ in the morning so he said no necessity to send him off. Well, hope he will be able to settle in real soon over there..

First Verse of the Year..

“This is what the LORD says— he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”- Isaiah 43:16, 18-19

平 安 如 意 ！心 想 事 成 ！