Niece getting married

Sister's daughter is getting married in Penang next month & she's invited us to be there to witness the ceremony & also for sister to meet her husband's side of the family. Sigh! Not sure if I'll be well enough to travel by then.

Plus my passport has already EXPIRED & I have yet to get it renewed! Took the photos but somehow lost them :( Now look so horrible so don't feel like taking any photos. Sigh! How leh? It's almost Sept.. SIGH!

Romans 6:23

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

recOuperate

Good grief! Jz found out that all this time I've misspelt the word "recuperate"!! Pardon me!

All my life I've thought it to be "recouperate". Only jz realised that it should be "recuperate". Hmmm.. How come no one corrected me? Sigh! Now we must make all the wrongs right. Hoho..

Back in action.. slowly..

Went out with Stella on Monday. Feel better so I think I can try to start doing some activities now. But told her that I can neither walk fast nor far.. Hahaha..

Tuesday was a rainy day :( Supposed to deliver some things to ex-office since Monday. Decide to stay home in case I get a relapse again.. Hmmm.. No activities with Stella cz she feels I should stay in too..

Yesterday went back to ex-office. Found that Yati was hospitalized since Saturday after an accident. Seems her situation is rather critical as she has injured her spine. Oh dear!!! So unfortunate. They told me that they have put a metal in her spine for support. Seems doc says she could have been paralysed. Sigh! Such is life. May drop by to see her this evening with RR.

Wireless Connection

Yeah! Called Linksys & they've helped me to set up my own wireless network. Fantastic! So far so good. Don't have any of those funny error messages coming on anymore & also my connection's not been cut-off since. Yippee yippee ai ai..

An example of a heartache

Heartache..

Home is supposed to be the safest place for a lot of people.. However, it's not the case for me..

There's a "monster" lurking around in my house, especially in my bedroom! This is not the first time I've been "ambushed" & each time the "monster" is simply all too forgetful to remember that she's been "warned" to steer clear. Sigh! What can I ask from a 83-yr old :(

I was just out of the house for 2 mere hours yesterday & when I got home, lo & behold, she's "attacked" again. This time she tore up all the documents, momentos & cheque books which I've conveniently put in a garbage bag as there was no bigger bag available then. She also conveniently thinks that everything inside is "garbage". The BIG question is - why in heaven's name does she want to enter my room to tear up MY GARBAGE!!??! not to mention that they aren't in the first place, & she actually has lots of garbage of her own to clear instead of crossing the line to mind mine! I think only God knows why. Good grief!

I literally cried for hours over this damage & my hands were quivering so badly as I rummage through the well-torn mess, trying to salvage as much as possible :(

I was so angry I think I can just die of a heart attack. Just cannot comprehend her action. She cried after realizing her mistake but what can be done? I really can die lor.

I think she has just multiplied all my c-cells zillion times.. & I'm very sure she's not suffering from dementia.. just 好心做坏事 :(

I begged her not to repeat this ever again. Now I'm just wonder how long she'll remember this heartache that she's caused me.. & honesty, I'm quite sure over time she's going to drop another time bomb on me again.. HAIZ..

Sicko!

Was reading yesterday's papers & saw this piece of news of some psycho fellow cutting off a cat's head & limps :( Jz can't understand how can one be so cruel.. Think this person is really mentally ill.. Like the news says.. Jz can't imagine such a person living in our midst.. Sigh!

Was jz telling myself last night how much I miss my kitties.. I really miss them moving around in the house. Now it all seems so empty. I used to cuddle them & now no more. Sob! And the truth is even if I very much would like to have another meow-meow, I honestly don't think I have the energy to take good care of it. Sooo sad :(

And I don't think neither my sis nor mum can understand the magnitude of me missing my cats. They are simply jz too relieved to not have them anymore. Sigh! Now they can move around the house freely without having to worry about closing the bedroom doors, covering all the chairs & sofas, & cleaning/sweeping all the cat furs. Poor things..

Out of job :(

Still not working.. Still coughing.. Had to postpone my guided ultrasound appt again cz they say they can't perform the procedure as long as I'm still coughing - cz it can be "dangerous". Sigh!

Feel pains all over, especially on my chest & back. Feel like the c-cells are "manifesting". Sigh!

My left hand will occasionally shiver.. Don't know why.. My stomach is all bloated.. My weight has been increasing.. My heart feels weak whenever I walk - regardless of the distance or pace.. DIE! How to get back to work like that?? Sigh!

Mike sms'd me several times on a post available in his company. Kept saying that "the door is open & I should seize the opportunity". Can die..

Energy level very very low.. Like batteries going flat.. Need to be recharged first.. How? Sigh!

Yipee yipee ai ai..

Intelligent me :) Finally managed to set up my router (with the help from the cable provider's technical team, of course) & now office PC is on cable modem while I can still access internet wireless.. Yeh!

IT-Chin kept telling me that signal will be weak but I'm going to prove him wrong. Woahahahaha..

So at least now I'm not so handicapped. Hooray..

Hopefully all access goes well.. Hee hee hee..

At last..

Had no internet access the entire week cz I "loaned" my modem to the company for "recording" purpose. The new system they have is so retarded - need to have internet connection for time synchronization. Sheer stupidity!

Now I'm jz tapping on wireless internet so this is not stable at all :(

Still coughing badly - very very bad. Consulted doc again on Thursday. Thought it has improved but relapse again. Jz don't understand WHY!!!

Good grief!

Thought I coughed blood this morning.. So scary.. Sigh.. Do not understand how come my coughing turned for the worse :( Must really make it stop soon..

Verse of the day

“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.”- 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Passion..

.. think I've lost it.

Sick Person

I feel like a very sick person. Don't understand how come still have not recovered. This horrid cough is lasting forever!!! This morning I coughed till my stomach literally "turned". Felt such great convulsions that I almost vimitted everything from within! It felt so nasty that tears automatically rolled from my eyes.. Sigh! Suffering.. I feel that there's some "alien bodies" within me that's causing chaos.. Many a time it feels like I can just stop breathing there & then. Sigh.. Pray that I will not have a suffering death :)

42nd National Day

Yeah.. It's National Day again! Not that I'm exceptionally excited but at least bro had the heart to bring mum out for a "family" time..

We went for a picnic at Marine Parade around 4+. It was breezy & nice there.. If only I had a car, I'd drive there everyday just to enjoy the sea breeze. Actually we had wanted to go to Sembawang Park but they arrived earlier to discover that there were no more parking lots so decide to adjourn to East Coast instead.

It was rather tiring for me. Whole body ached after that :( The final highlight of the day was that we got stuck at ECP exactly at 8.15pm while they were having the fireworks! Definitely not intentional. The traffic simply refused to move!!! Everyone just stopped their cars just to watch the fireworks! Sigh.. Singaporeans.. Really unbelievable!!

有话就说Shoot2

Just heard this comment on TV. Thought it's a rather profound statement. “只要他跌倒就要帮他站起来，不管他是怎样跌倒的。”
I agree with it absolutely.

DO NOT CONFORM TO THE PATTERN OF THE WORLD,
BUT BE TRANSFORMED
BY THE RENEWING OF YOUR MIND.
THEN YOU WILL BE ABLE TO TEST AND APPROVE WHAT GOD'S WILL IS -
HIS GOOD, PLEASING AND PERFECT WILL.

~ ROMANS 12:2

Bro's family

Yes, they gone to Thailand to enjoy themselves again. Happy for them. That's the kind of life they wish to lead. He's only back for a short 6 wks so I guess they should try to spend as much quality time together as possible. Told him that he should also try to spend some quality time with his mother else his coming home is as good as being in Shanghai - see no sight of him! No point in "regretting" thereafter.. Hope he is able to put my suggestion into action. We'll see about that. Only time will tell :)

Another round of "saga"

Wed evening, RR & IT-Chin came over to my place to "recce". They need to look into the possibility of installing the new system. Spent about an hour at my place. Foresee that it'll be a messy job. HEADACHE!!

Out of action.. missing in action..

Sigh! Been ill for the longest time ever.. Have been coughing & coughing & coughing.. Fever subsided on Sunday but started this horrid cough. Went to see Dr Koh again yesterday.

The fierce cough will literally kill me eventually. I get this piercing pain on my left kidney but doc claims that it's nothing. Now I get this piercing pain on my left chest. Hmmm.. Strange that everything seems to be on my left side.. Started having soreness on my left throat this morning..

With this illness, I think it's the most relaxing time I have.. Doing nothing everyday.. Just coughing & coughing.. Hope to recuperate soon else my stress level will increase tremendously very very soon :)