Ill

Fell sick since Monday! Got quite a temperature so consulted doc on Tuesday. Fever didn't subside till yesterday but this morning it came back. And my cough got worse :( Jz can't move. Sigh! Maybe got to go see doc again afterwards. Hope ii's not dengue! Choi choi choi.. Had to postpone my guided ultrasound because they can't do it while I'm that ill. Sigh! Pray pray pray.. Think literally I've been down for over a month!!

Mealtime :)

Sigh.. Since I lost all the data in my laptop, I've been missing all those pix I have in my picture folder. Chanced upon some old pix last night & saw this cute squirrel pix - taken by me leh :) Saw this little thing I managed to catch it in action. My scanner's going to be very busy again.. Hehehe..

活好当下

Was watching this HK TV series & heard this saying - 活好当下. Don't actually know the meaning of this. So looked it up on the internet & found that it says something like "live everyday as it it's your last". Hmmm.. Interesting :)

Extracted this from somewhere.. “要把每一天当作生命里的最后一天过，砍掉昨天，截住明天，如果只有今天一天活命了，要怎样去活这一天？” In short, it's 活好活着的每一天。

Well, this seems to be in line with biblical teachings. The Lord says:

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." ~ Matthew 6:34

My Quiet Time

Since Monday, I told myself that I must devote more time with the Lord so I planned to have at least one hour of quiet time every morning. Unfortunately, this has not been achieved :( Don't understand how come it's so difficult!!!?? Pray tell..

Word of caution:
To follow Christ we must let go of all that we hold dear;
And once we have denied ourselves, our gains become more clear.

Got kicked out of BSF.. boohoohoo..

Haha.. Yes.. I asked for it. This is the rule so I'll have to abide by it. Since I've continuously missed class for 3 times, I'm no longer allowed to attend any more classes this year, unless I appeal & get approval from the top. Anywayzz, told BL I might so well take a break since my health has not been good & can never really make it to class every week. RT must be very disappointed. Hohoho..

Who does she resemble?

Used to love to tease C-jiejie that she looks like Michelle Chia/Fann Wong. She hates that. Hahaha..

Jz done watching a program & realised that C-jiejie actually resembles Nora Miao in her younger days.. As in Nora's younger days, of course. Let me show you.. There you are! C-jiejie.. viola!

Er.. But of course C-jiejie much much prettier than all the above-mentioned lah :)

My Alumni

Good grief! My school alumni finally caught up with me. ML sms'd me that we'll be having a class gathering on National Day! Have not been in any of their activities for at least 2 decades!

Then happen to get in touch with JS & told her about my thyroid case. And coincidentally she said one of out old schoolmate is now an endocrinologist. Wanted me to consult her about me case. Good Lord! She must be expensive! And the main thing is, she doesn't really know who I am & I also can't remember how she looks. Sigh!

看来我已经患上了。。。精神病！

Heard this over the news today.. That those people who indulge themselved in computer games are suffering from some kind of mental illness.. So guess I fall into that category :)

Need treatment?

What's been happening this week..

Well, I've been trying to "recuperate" at home.. Each time I leave the house, I end up home, half-dead! Have been stuffing myself with my supplements again, plus sister's. So far I still feel out of breath, out of sorts & extremely weak :(

Ben called me a couple of days back (can't remember which day) that he had decided to leave the company & it seems he's "tendered". Sigh! Don't know what's happening! I think Stella is frustrated with me as I have not been reverting to her on her requests.. Firstly bcz aunty died & subsequently jz didn't know what to tell her.. Then there's this "energy level" problem.. Sigh!

Wed went down to PSA Building to settle merchant issues. Figuring the way to get there on my own was rather fun. Took a leisurely ride :)

Went back to ex-office this Monday & Thursday, as "instructed". Don't know how come people want to make life so difficult for others!!? Nelson was "unhappy" & the girls are also complaining.. Aiya.. but they jz "murmur" only lah.. When you actually ask them, NO ONE DARES TO SAY ANYTHING ONE.

Had lunch with Shirley yesterday. After that, heard from RR that one household called to complain that we still have some "things" left at their house & they waited 2 yrs for us to remove them! Good grief! Can't die of shock, right?? %&#^(#!$%*#@

Went down to the household-in-question (Mrs Goh) to settle her problems. Hehe.. Resolved. Hohoho.. Yeah!

Old aunties

During the funeral dinner last night, mum & I were sitting with a few old aunties. Seems that they knew my mummy for 60 over years already! Shocking! If I'm not wrong, one of them was her primary school classmate, the rest were schoolmates :)

This aunty & her sister were telling me how cute I was when I was a baby.. that I had natural curls & big round eyes with long eye lashes.. & how they used to love to make me cry.. by pretending to hit my mum.. & without fail I'll cry when they do that.. aiyo.. so funny.. We were really long-time family friends. Seems her son & my brother used to "play" together. Hahaha..

The best thing is, my mum says she doesn't remember this, or any other matters, at all! Great, right? Sigh!

Praise the Lord!

Wanted to praise Him for this miracle on the handphone. I had this handphone that's spoilt, as in the screen has gone blank so you actually don't see any display of words or pictures! To get it repaired, I've checked, it will cost me about $180. I simply refuse to do so. So it's been that way for at lease the past 9 months. And suddenly last week, the display just came back on.. just like that! Amazing, right? I just can't stop praising Him. Hehehe..

Goodbye, 六姨！

Yeap, she's gone for good.. Just got back from her funeral. Though we were not exceptionally close, she's still one of my favourite aunties. I like her & my 5th aunt best.

Sad that she left so suddenly but glad that she's a blessed child of God. We all take comfort that she's now in good Hands & He's taken good care of her throughout. Even with cancer spreading all over her body, it seems that she experienced little pain. And she died in her sleep. Hallelujah! Sigh! Don't we all want to go that way :)

Anyway, at the wake last night, my cousin delivered a very touching eulogy. She's my aunt's niece but she calls her "mum". Her husband & the 3 kids loved my aunt & regard her as their mother-in-law & grandmother respectively. In short, she's lived a full & blessed life.

Farewell, 六姨, till we meet again.. Cheerio!

BSF Classes

Class resumed on July 2 but I have not been attending due to poor health. I must have a breakthrough.. So far I've already missed 2 lessons. Can't afford not to go for next class cz if I miss it I'll likely be "kicked out" :)

Will try to make it a point to attend next Monday. Would also like to make an effort to attend church this Sunday.

Hallelujah!

Friday the 13th

Yes, today is Friday 13th. My dad used to be very wary of this day due to past experiences. Thank God he's now free from such bondages :)

My 6th aunt passed away yesterday evening. I personally found it to be very sudden. I remembered seeing her in March at a niece's (cousin's daughter) wedding. At that time she was still able to walk around with a walking stick. Sigh! A few weeks back we heard that she was hospitalised. Visited her a couple of times but she's been "sleeping". Eventually she was moved to a hospice last week and in less than a week she's gone!! Life is indeed unpredictable. Better find time to cherish our loved ones :)

I've been feeling out of sorts of late. Tire easily. Shortness of breath. Wonder if I should go for an overall examination at the NCC. Need to revitalize myself else I may just reach the point of no return. Hahaha..

Good health or bad?

Stupid hospital taking forever to get me the guided ultrasound appt. Eventually got me an appt for end of this month! Any "growth" within me would have spreaded far & wide by then.. Ha!

What's been happening to me so far..

Have not really been "blogging" so cannot really remember what's transpired over the past week. Jz know that I'm in pretty bad shape.

Weight has gone up again.. Shortness of breath has worsened. Have body aches constantly. Always feel dizzy & out of sorts.

Have been going out with Stella rather often. Went to see doctor yesterday morning bcz I had chest pain since Friday evening. Did ECG but doc says everything appears normal. But my pain persists. Now I have to hunch my back in order to ease the discomfort. Can't laugh heartily, can't breathe heavily.. Gastric pain. Swollen ankle.

Brought mum for her check-up at AH on Thursday. Then went to visit 6th aunt. Seems she has a tumour pressing against her brain. She totally immobilized now. Had been in SGH for some time. So sad. This has happened rather suddenly.

My ex-office people are becoming more and more unbearable & nasty. Sigh! Such is life. People find that they no longer have use of you so they are showing their "true colours". It's "colourful" indeed but really distasteful. Realised that I've been so naive & stupid! This is something that I have to admit that I'm too slow to realise & it's all too late now. I will never be able to unwind time :(

Feeling rather hurt & disappointed after a conversation with my ------- -----. Life has indeed lost it's meaning.

Had lunch with SS last week. We shared some past experiences. She's help me realise some new things about someone whom I have a softspot for. Sigh.. Again I have to admit that I've been pulling wool over my eyes for the past years. All the wrong decisions & missed opportunities.. Double-sigh..

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Walao.. Everyone's crazy over this number.. Everything is SEVEN!
Ya, I also think 7 is a good number :)

July 7 is my darling niece's birthday.. Happy Birthday to her :)