What's been happening to me so far..

Have not really been "blogging" so cannot really remember what's transpired over the past week. Jz know that I'm in pretty bad shape.

Weight has gone up again.. Shortness of breath has worsened. Have body aches constantly. Always feel dizzy & out of sorts.

Have been going out with Stella rather often. Went to see doctor yesterday morning bcz I had chest pain since Friday evening. Did ECG but doc says everything appears normal. But my pain persists. Now I have to hunch my back in order to ease the discomfort. Can't laugh heartily, can't breathe heavily.. Gastric pain. Swollen ankle.

Brought mum for her check-up at AH on Thursday. Then went to visit 6th aunt. Seems she has a tumour pressing against her brain. She totally immobilized now. Had been in SGH for some time. So sad. This has happened rather suddenly.

My ex-office people are becoming more and more unbearable & nasty. Sigh! Such is life. People find that they no longer have use of you so they are showing their "true colours". It's "colourful" indeed but really distasteful. Realised that I've been so naive & stupid! This is something that I have to admit that I'm too slow to realise & it's all too late now. I will never be able to unwind time :(

Feeling rather hurt & disappointed after a conversation with my ------- -----. Life has indeed lost it's meaning.

Had lunch with SS last week. We shared some past experiences. She's help me realise some new things about someone whom I have a softspot for. Sigh.. Again I have to admit that I've been pulling wool over my eyes for the past years. All the wrong decisions & missed opportunities.. Double-sigh..