无间道

Infernal Affairs - It's on now.. Watching it for the umpteenth time.. Trying to switch to the Cantonese version. Wonder if I'll fall asleep while watching it :)

It's me.. .. feeling very tired & sleepy & yet refuse to get some rest.. Sigh! What a sadist I am :)

How should I do?

Just wondering what I should do when I die.. Do I want to be cremated? Actually not sure leh.. Hate incineration. Contemplating water burial.. Should I opt for that? Don't think I like an actual burial lah.. My body will simply rot & disintegrate to ashes anywayzzz.. Once I decide, I must go tell someone, just in case :) Sigh! Think I've been sighing a wee bit too much of late..

Tragic!

Just realised that all my maomaos' videos & photos are GONE! And now that my maomaos are all gone too, there's no way for me to retake anything anymore.. Sob, Sob, Sigh!

Just like the last time when my dad passed away, I took so many photos of him lying in the coffin & none came out good. And now there's no way to take more photos of that too.. Haha.. How morbid can I get!

Regretsssss :(

整个人都散了！

I'm just so tired today.. I think I'm falling to pieces already..

Walked so much yesterday.. Me & my wise idea.. I literally walked from Peninsula Plaza to Cecil Street, and thereafter from Cecil Street to Golden Shoe Carpark, and from there to Raffles Place MRT, in my 3-inch shoes!!! Aarrrggggghhhhhhhhh!!! Almost dropped dead! And don't know when or where I knocked my index finger & now it's bruised & swollen.. Sigh!

These days I can literally feel my health deteriorating. Become out of breath very easily. Even when I walk extremely slow, I'm still breathless.. Sigh! Think I'll be going very soon.. Better get myself prepared.. And the strange thing is - I'm still putting on weight! Hmmm..

Think I need to start doing some housework before I regret.. Yes, Blurrblob, 加油！

mybelovedlaptopisback,but..

Yup, it's finally back. But my files are all gone! Not retrievable :(

KK only managed to get back a few jpg files for me but not the rest. Boohoohoohoo.. He says if I want to recover the rest, I may need to go to those recovery centres & spend few hundreds or few thousands to get them back. Sigh! So I have to resign to the fact that they are gone because I actually don't know how important are those files that are lost!! There are simply too many of them.

All my pictures and music files are gone. All the files in my C-drive's gone.. And I think they're now gone for good. Sigh!!

Just remembered that I have a "password" file with all my passwords & websites recorded. So now that this file's gone, I may have problems accessing some of my registered sites (don't know how many) & email & membership accounts. Don't know what to do now but sulk! Hahaha..

Going on sabbatical again!

My laptop is ill!

Most of the icons/shortcuts on my desktop have disappeared!! My pictures & music & video downloads are all gone.. Yes, ALL GONE!!! So are all the files in my C-drive :(

Going to die already.. Dunno what to do.. Is there a doctor in the house? I think it's had an acute virus attack. Dunno what to do..
H E L P !!!!

Ya.. Both my laptop & myself will definitely be going on sabbatical.. with immediate effect.. Still dunno what to do..

Tata..

Glad That I Live Am I

Glad that I live am I,
That the sky is blue.
Glad for the country lanes,
And the fall of dew.
After the sun the rain,
After the rain the sun.
This is the way of life,
Till the work be done.
All that we need to do,
Be we low or high.
Is to see that we grow,
Nearer the sky.

The lyrics of the song come from the poem 'A Little Song Of Life', by the American poet Lizette Woodworth Reese

~ Taken from Wikipedia ~

God Is My CEO

Have not read a book for ages! Decided to start the habit. Hope I can carry it through.

P A S S E

Feeling a sense of..

Despondence - feeling downcast and disheartened and hopeless
&
Indignation - strong displeasure at something considered unjust, offensive, insulting, or base; righteous anger

To Chor Heah..

When 2 poor time-management persons meet..

..a 10.30am appointment becomes a 11.30am appointment.

Joseph is God-sent! God is a living God. I am deaf & dumb..

Thanks! Speak louder please :)

June 13

Will I remember this date? Yes. First time in my life this has happened. Am feeling very indignant! Crap.

Stupid Doc!

Went back for the results of my FNAB the other day. Can you believe this? They told me that because the samples they took were not sufficient so they were unable to come up with anything conclusive!!! The report says "Non-diagnostic aspirate", whatever that means.

The senior consultant recommended surgery regardless of the findings but I'm definitely not for it. Imagine the trauma I have to go through.. Think I'll just rot & die. Hahaha..

In the present society..

..it really doesn't pay to be honest :(

I wonder how true is this statement.. But it just happened to me. I tried to be honest but it backfired.. Then again, I think that's life.

But why is this happening to me I really don't understand. Guess I'll never understand until the day I die. And then again if I don't get to meet the Lord, I'll still not know even though I die. Sigh!

Discrepancy in Cash Balancing

Since I started working at tall counter taking in deposits, this is the first time I'm short in my balance!!! I was $50 short!! Woe is me! Now I realise why they always "warn" me to ensure that everything balances. Regardless of the amount involved, once there's any discrepancy, the procedure is that everyone, & it's literally EVERYONE, has to stay back to re-count all their cash :( It was such a hassle. And the officer had to file a report, plus a lot of other nonsense. I think all of them must really be cursing & swearing at me in their hearts boy! By the time I left at 6.50pm, they still had to stay back for a briefing. Poor things! Haiz.. Can't stand my imperfections! Can't stand my making mistakes! It's never meant to be this way :(
Moody!!!

Funnies

Received this from a friend today via email. Found it to be rather witty :)

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A jobless man applied for the position of 'office boy' at Microsoft. The HR manager interviewed him then watched him clean the floor as a test. "You are employed" he said. "'Give me your e-mail address & I'll send you the application to fill in, as well as the date that you may start work." The man replied, "But I don't have a computer, nor an email." "I'm sorry", said the HR manager, "If you don't have an email, that means you do not exist. And whoever doesn't exist, cannot have the job."

The man left with no hope at all. He didn't know what to do, with only $10 in his pocket. He then decided to go to the supermarket & buy a 10Kg tomato crate. He then sold the tomatoes in a door-to-door round. In less than 2 hours, he succeeded to double his capital. He repeated the operation 3 times, & returned home with $60. The man realized that he can survive this way, & started to go everyday earlier, & return late. Thus, his money doubled or tripled everyday.

Shortly, he bought a cart, then a truck, & then he had his own fleet of delivery vehicles. 5 years later, the man became one of the biggest food retailers in the US . He started to plan his family's future, & decided to have a life insurance. He called an insurance broker, & chose a protection plan. When the conversation was concluded, the broker asked him for his email. The man replied, "I don't have an email." The broker answered curiously, "You don't have an email, & yet have succeeded to build an empire. Can you imagine what you could have been if you had an email?!!"

The man thought for a while & replied, "Yes, I'd be an office boy at Microsoft!"

Moral of the story:
1. Internet / email is not the solution to your life.
2. If you don't have internet / email & work hard, you can be a millionaire.
3. If you received this message by email, you are probably already an office boy/girl, & not any close to being a millionaire...

Have a great day!!!

P.S. - Do not forward this email back to me; I am closing my email & going to sell tomatoes!!!

娄蚁尚且偷生

Was watching "Investigation Files" at Ch 48. So funny. This guy was mugged & stabbed & left to bleed to death.. And he was prepared to give up since his wife just died at their wedding.. Then he saw this ant looking around for food.. Then he decides that since an ant, regardless of how short-lived it's life span is, still strives to survive, so should he..

Thus he remembereth the Chinese saying 娄蚁尚且偷生. So ironical. Wonder if I have written it correctly.

OO

Actually I didn't really like that OO. Heard from many that she's really "one kind". Plus I've witnessed many instances myself of her being indifferent & irritating. But apparently she's been rather nice to me. Must have been my mum's prayers :) Haha..

Her voice is still rather irritating but the tone is different now. In fact, to a certain extent, I'd say she's been rather kind & patient with me. I think it's because of my "blurness" & constant smileyface :) Hallelujah..

Everyday she will come to me to check if the "contents" in my drawers are "well-organized". In fact, she's been packing for me :) Good, right? Whenever she comes around, I'll just grin widely, look sweet, & listen to her, & agree, & thank her "profusely". Hehehe.. What a hypocrite I am :)

Just wondering how long I'm last in this job :)

Funnies..

Received this from an acquaintance today via email. Thought it's rather funny :)

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Three answers most scared by men -

(1) Whatever

Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever...
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples in my face...
Men: Alright, why not we have Sichuan cuisine?
Women: Yesterday ate Sichuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm... I suggest we have seafood then.
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhea.
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women : Whatever...

(2) Anything

Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie.
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only.
Men: How about we play bowling, do some exercises?
Women: Exercise in such a hot day? You not feel tired meh?
Men: Then find a cafe and have drink.
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep.
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything...

(3) You decide

Men: Then we just go home lo...
Women: You decide!
Men: Let's take a bus, I will accompany you.
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la...
Men: Ok, we will take taxi then.
Women: Not worth it la... for such a short distance.
Men: Alright, then we walk lo... Take a slow walk.
Women: What??? To walk with empty stomach woh?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide.
Men: Let's have dinner first.
Women: Whatever...
Men: Eat what?
Women: Anything...

(Look around... no one here, gonna kill her....)

Meeting Ben

Finally managed to meet up with him (again).. He gave me some advice but at the end of the day, I guess it all still depends on me, I, & myself.

Before we parted, he told me: "This will be the first & last time I'm saying this to you.. 做工啦！"

Darling niece coming back soon!

Yeah.. She's been away for some time.. Think she went to Hawaii & Vegas. On her way back now. Yeah! Yeah!

Haha.. Actually whether she's around or not also not much diff lah.. These days hardly get to see her. So once she starts working in her new job, likely she'll be altogether busy again! Haiz..

:(

Yeah! Finally 开张了！

Today finally managed to start "working". Even jz handling deposits made me a happy person. Except that I found the "part-time colleagues" to be rather unhelpful. Only Mary seems to be very nice. The rest.. Sigh! Such is life. Guess I've been rather sheltered all my life :(

Once that got started, I was unable to leave at 4pm liao.. Only got to leave around 5.30pm :( So I missed my appt with Ben & David which was fixed at 5pm! So now gotta postpone to Monday :( Aiya.. So angry.. So went back to ex-office instead. Saw some of my ex-colleagues after this one month break :)

Tomorrow got to start work at 8.30am.. So exciting.. Hahaha..

Actually very happy that I got all my balances right! Hehehe.. Count money, count money.. Too bad none belongs to me :(