TIRED & STRESSED

I've been busy the entire week. No life of my own & actually have no inclination to have one :( THIS IS PATHETIC! I have no qualms taking care of TWO elderly ladies as long as one of them is not as fussy & nerve-wrecking. Nothing that I do for her seems to be right & it's absolutely frustrating. Everything that she says she wants to eat, after I buy them, she doesn't eat them, saying that they don't taste good or they make her feel like throwing up & she can't swallow!!! FRUSTRATION!

Above that, I still need to do the basic errands & after that rush to man the shop everyday, which is a real boring task. Sometimes I even have to visit the suppliers & money-changers. That'll take up my entire day! & all my other personal matters have to be "put on hold" e.g. had to stop my part-time job, unable to attend any meetings at WIGI, no means of searching for matches for some of my "clients", too tired to call HHs, etc, etc, etc.. By the time I get home, I'm normally EXHAUSTED.

I've never complained so much about my loved ones in my life! Usually my motto is "to serve with love unreservedly & happily". This round, it's really tough on me. No wonder my bp never got better :(

Last night was the only night I have some time of my own cz I was "allowed" to "take the night off" due to my poor health condition ;(
Sigh! Really PATHETIC!

Think I shall try to find some time to rest today. Not even sure if she is well to get back to work tomorrow, & if not, then it's back to another round of stressful-week >:(

PS: I think physically I look like a mad woman now & behaviourally I'm on high-wire. Mentally I'm optimally-stressed, & spiritually I'm down in the dumps.