延年益寿歌

起得早，睡得好，七分饱，常跑跑，
多笑笑，莫烦恼，天天忙，永不老，
日行五千步，夜眠七小时，
饮食不逾量，作息要均衡，
心中常喜乐，口头无怨声，
爱人如爱己，知足常感恩。

《忍》字养福，
《乐》字益寿，
《动》字健身，
《静》字养心。

Mummy dearest passed this to me. Found it to be interesting so decide to post the good advice on the blog :)

Five Little Ducks

Five little ducks that I once knew,
Fat ones, skinny ones, two by two.
But, the one little duck with the feather on his back,
He ruled the others with a quack, quack, quack!
Down by the river they would go,
Wibble wobble, wibble wobble, to and fro,
But, the one little duck with the feather on his back,
He ruled the others with a quack, quack, quack!
Down from the river they would come,
Wiggle woggle, wiggle woggle, ho, ho, hum,
But, the one little duck with the feather on his back,
He ruled the others with a quack, quack, quack!

* Suddenly feel like singing this song.. reminisce :)

Still no work in office for me :)

Hahaha.. Very good, right? Get paid for doing nothing everyday. Sigh! I really think it's a waste of my precious time. But nothing to complain about lah.. Since I'm being paid for it. It's like they are buying my time lor.. Hmmm.. Wonder how much more time I have left :)

Anyway, went in in uniform today but, too bad, CM was off. Hoho.. LAN access still not in. I really think everything is not done efficiently when he is not around. Sigh! Too bad.. Too bad..

I keep on putting on weight! That's worrying. Getting extremely out of proportion. And that uniform of mine is absolutely ill-fitting! Very xian wearing it for 4.5 hrs everyday! Woe is me :(

Will try to catch up on some sleep tomorrow since it's a public holiday. I feel my life slipping away.. Woahahaha.. Easily tired these days. Ummm.. Perhaps I should go for a swim.. Hyakyakyak..

Officially work at high counter tomorrow?

Haha.. My CM was extra "kancheong" today. When I told him I need to go on MC, he was not too pleased. Called the tailor himself to insist that I need to have my uniform by tomorrow. Woahaha.. Appears that my LAN access password is in already, finally.. So looks like tomorrow I will really get to start "working". GREAT! Jz that I'm not sure if I'll last in this job if ultimately I need to take MCs on & off for those medical consultations. Haiz.. Also don't understand why all these things are happening to me.. Well..

Thyroid Cancer

Went for my ultrasound results this morning. Highly probable that I'm having this. Doc did a FNAB on me. Conclusion: Regardless of yes, not sure, or no, it's recommended that I go for the operation.

Another op? Over my dead body lor :)

CM is back!

I'm only just too happy that my CM is back, finally! He's been away for a month & it's the first time I met him on Saturday. Seems to be quite a nice man :)

At least he seems more keen on getting me started & he seems to know more of what to do. So far, he's been rather "kind" in filling me in on things e.g. he is more willing to teach.. compared to all the rest. I really don't like this new environment.

Today, er.. as in yesterday (Monday), he made me stay in the "back room". Seems that I'm not supposed to appear "in front" if I am not in uniform. Wohoho.. & imagine I was showing my face all over for the past 2 weeks!! Hehe.. I finally got to do some "work" instead of sitting around, watching.. Yeah!

Now just waiting for the uniform & LAN access.. Sigh! Talk about promoting efficiency.. Sshhhh..

Do you agree?

Watch your thoughts; they become words.
Watch your words; they become actions.
Watch your actions; they become habits.
Watch your habits; they become character.
Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.

沉默是金 (Silence is Gold)

夜风凛凛独回望旧事前尘，是以往的我充满怒愤，
诬告与指责积压着满肚气不忿，对谣言反应甚为着紧。

受了教训得了书经的指引，现已看得透不再自困，
但觉有分数不再像以往那般笨，抹泪痕轻快笑着行。

冥冥中都早注定你富或贫，是错永不对真永是真，
任你怎说安守我本份，始终相信沉默是金！

是非有公理慎言莫冒犯别人，遇上冷风雨休太认真，
自信满心里休理会讽刺与质问，笑骂由人洒脱地做人。

Just heard this song on TV sung by Leslie Chung. Seems it's composed by Sam Hui. Nice lyrics. He is really talented. Can't find another singer with the same voice, talent & temperament.

DENGUE

Sigh.. Two officers came to our block on Monday to check whether there are mosquitoes breeding.. Unfortunately, they did find some breeding in my house. Shocking, right? Problems ahead, right?? Yes, of course.

Seems that there were 1 or 2 cases of dengue fever at my block, thus the intensive investigations. As for my place, the lavae were found inside the two bamboo holders which we were not evern aware of their existence!! We've never used them since we shifted in so no one knew they were there in the first place, except for these 2 officers! Funny, right? Sigh!

They told us that there'll likely be a fine. They will return again next week to re-check. Good thing I was home that morning. My mum will probably not know what's happening & how to handle. Sigh! Don't understand how come my life is ever so eventful. The Lord really adores me :)

Must pick up new habit..

I think I should stop spending so much time with my lap-top. Instead I should spend more time with my "books". Sigh! Not that easy cz I'm really not a book-reading person. But I strongly feel that I should start developing a liking for this cz there are many "books" waiting for me to read them. Yes, I am very sure of that.

I'm a "killer"!

Yes, I am. Everyday I am killing TIME. Can die lor.. Already feeling so overwhelmed with my personal problems.. Then this doing-nothing-at-work thingy is really killing me also lor.. So moody..

MIA

C-jiejie has been missing-in-action!

Wonder where she is?? How to locate her leh? Perhaps she's gone for her 2nd or 3rd honeymoon :)

Woahahahaha..

booboos..

I didn't mention all the booboos I made in the office.. Haiz.. I think my branch people don't like me :( Either that or I don't like them :)

Last week, can't remember if it's Fri or Sat, this customer came in to ask about his account. While waiting for an answer, he was left alone at the counter. I thought I needed to keep him out of boredom so we started to engage actively in a conversation. Ha! Seems that I'm not supposed to do that! Who would've known?? Good grief, right?!!

Then I had to go on leave for one day due to the ultrasound - cz they don't grant MCs for that :(

Then yesterday I had gastric attack so I called in sick. The deputy CM told me to go see doc to confirm my MC. Called her back around 3.30pm cz I only went to the clinic around 2pm. She said I'm supposed to go see doc 1st thing in the morning & call her back immediately after that! Good grief! Really ridiculous regulations lor!!

Today, lagi best. I really feel very bored every day. This morning when I went in, my "teacher" was on MC. Haha.. There was really nothing much for me to do, so I decided to do a little errand of my own - I went to top-up my phonecard. This was really the 1st time I did such a thing & viola, lo & behold, my deputy CM had to come hunting for me! Sayang told me that she came looking for me at least 4-5 times. Sigh.. REALLY DUNNO WHAT TO SAY.. She told me that while I am on duty, I cannot just roam off without asking for permission.. Yes, my fault this time.. but.. sigh..

Wonder how many more booboos will come along my way :) yek yek..

Ultrasound

Did not go to work on Monday as I had to go for my ultrasound. Doesn't seem good. But won't know until I see the doctor next week.

Whatever the case may be, I don't think I'll go for any ops. Over my dead body! My depression is getting the better of me again!

Just heard from a friend that 2 of her friends died within 3 days! One jumped & another (non-smoker) died of throat cancer. Both less than 25 yrs of age. Haizz.. Life is indeed FRAGILE. Better make hay while the sun still shines :)

Doing NOTHING at work everyday!

It's really boring cz I'm literally doing nothing everyday. Good thing it's only for 4 hrs :) Anything longer than that will really bore me to death!

I think my "mentor" is also getting tired of me watching her work everyday. Jz today she was commenting to the deputy centre manager that she would like to do "my work" instead as I don't have to do anything & yet get paid. Sigh! What sarcasm.. But what to do? It's not my fault that they can't start me since my LAN details are not ready. Plus they don't have extra manpower for someone to guide me along the way.. Hohoho.. Not my problem leh.. I was telling my "mentor" that by the time I actually start to work, I'd probably have forgotten everything that I've learnt during training. Woahahaha..

Really think I am "wasting" my time there.. Everyday just waiting for the cisco guard to close the door at 4pm! Then I scram. Hahaha.. Could have done so many things "outside". I was asking for work to do today but was literally "ignored" by the deputy. She simply smiled at me. Yet they tell me that the branch is shorthanded! Aarrhhhzzzzzz..

Well, but I also realised that I should count my blessings cz once I get my passwords & IDs, I'll be kept very very busy.. this time.. WORKING.. for real :)

Confession is good for the soul :)

Yes, I didn't go to church this Sunday :( But the Lord certainly wants to "speak" to me, and I heard Him on Monday at BSF. I definitely need a "revival", Lord.. Am I supposed to be like Moses & Joseph & Job??? Haizzzzzz..

Somebody's birthday today..

Today is "somebody's" birthday but I do not wish to send my greetings & well-wishes to him. Let him ROT! Woahahaha..

Rejoice!

"Rejoice in the Lord, always! And again I say "Rejoice"!"

Met up with this guy on Wednesday who works in this company called Rejoice.. I hope it's really something for me to "rejoice" about. Met up with his boss on Thursday. Seems they are all attending Wesley Methodist. Hmmm..

Sister was telling me that this Sunday Pastor will be preaching on something that's "close to my heart".. She insists that I HAVE TO GO TO CHURCH THIS SUNDAY! Sigh! Hohoho.. Tell me what to do :)

纸上谈兵

I realised that what I've learnt was all in theory. In actual practice, everything is kind of different at the workplace. They, the management, of course, hope to have the ideal situation but in real life, the employees do not really follow suit. Haha.. Such sub-standard practice. Hmmm.. I really have lots to comment. Hehehe..

Seems that in the old company, they are still facing the same "staff" issues.. Lateness, absentism, urgent leave, medical leave, etc, etc.. This is another set of problems. Glad I'm no longer a victim of this. I'm sure whoever's taking over is able to cope better than I. Not being cynical, merely stating facts! I'm took "emotional" & easily affected. Plus with my own set of problems, I really can't cope with the situation lor.. At least now in the new job, I'm less stressed. Jz need to ensure that I get to bring in "more" income soon.. 加油！

CANCER

Heard this morning from an ex-colleague that my ex-boss' sister contracted breast cancer. Already went through therapy. Sigh! Life is indeed fragile. Hope my ex-boss is taking this well.

She's not been in touch with me so I do not know how she's doing now. But she's a strong lady so I guess she'll be ok. All communications to me is now via my ex-colleague. I feel that we've "drifted apart" so greatly that I do not feel an affinity anymore. Perhaps all along there's never been one :( I sensed that everything between us is too superficial & "fake". Perhaps it's because we are not "birds of a feather".. Never had been, I guess..

Boring days..

Yes, it's been pretty boring at work :( Everyday doing NOTHING but just sit around watching others work. Sigh! Never imagine that it's that way. Haha.. Good thing it's only for 4.5 hrs. Otherwise I think I'll rot for sure. On the other hand, I was told to "enjoy" this while it lasts cz once I start to "work", it'll not be the same anymore. Sigh! It's so ironic!

My bank creditors..

Haiz.. I really think they've really all been very very kind to me. I've dragged them on for so long & they've really been patient. Wonder how long more I can hold on.. Think the pot will "crack" very soon :(

Today..

Officially back at branch today.. Still doing observation :) So now almost everyone at the branch is my "sifu".. So far I've "followed" 4 of them. But somehow I have this bad feeling that I may not stay long in this job. Sigh! Just a bad gut feel.. Usually I'm very positive about things but this round, hmmm.. very strange..

After work, met up with Benedict. Had a chat with him for about over an hour.. Tomorrow will go meet up with David.

So far so good. Have yet to start actual work at branch so not sure if I'll be stressed. Will see how ;)

Sans celebration..

Didn't "celebrate" Mother's Day this year with mummy :( Both sis & I didn't feel "up-to-it" & mum felt that we can celebrate any other time since she doesn't really bother about such things. Plus it was my aunt's birthday & mum wanted to celebrate her sister's big day with her & her family instead. Well.. What can we say..

Sigh! Such unfilial daughters we are.. Shameful! Sob! Sob!

Yeah.. Training is over :)

Yes! It's finally, officially, OVER :) I'm now considered "trained", in the very elementary sense. Hehe.. But I think I'm still super-blur about what's going on. I think it's because of the early mornings & long-distance travelling.. My head is still spinning..

The girls (Phyllis & Jocelyn) were so cute. Today during training we were supposed to role play. They found me so blur that they decide to "teach" me from beginning to end on what to do, what to say, etc.. So sweet of them.

I didn't mention but my class, which is "Batch 6", has 7 trainees, including moi. I was the only part-timer. The other 5 (4 girls, 1 guy) are all Poly grads & 1 grad (girl) who has 2 yrs of working experience. The Poly grads are AOs & the grad SO. I get along better with Phyl & Jo. Both are very nice girls.. 21 & 20 yrs old. Sigh! So young. Pris is ok. Nick is a super-duper-blur guy. Sherry is kind of "lian", while Jean is the "super-smart" grad.

Don't think I'll be seeing them again after today :) I think they'll go mystery-shopping tomorrow. As for me, I'll be going back to the branch tomorrow around 11am. Wonder what's in store for me. Hmmm.. No uniform yet so I'll need to "disguise" myself to try to "blend-in". Likely also need to put on light make-up :( Problematic!!

The Perfect "Little Dragon Girl"

And this is how she looks now.. Well, sans make-up, guess that's as good as it can get :)

Do you know how to differentiate a genuine note from a counterfeit? Hehe.. I DO :)

Adjusting my biological clock!

VERY DIFFICULT! Now I can literally fall asleep while standing. That's bcz I've been waking up at a much earlier time than my usual waking-up time. Quite an achievement but it's really a chore for me e-v-e-r-y m-o-r-n-i-n-g. That's due to the actual distance that I need to travel to the training centre. If I do not get on the mrt by 8am, I'll not be able to get to class by 9am so I'll end up being late! And the trainers are very particular about puntuality. So for a few mornings, in order to arrive on time, I actually ended up taking a cab there. Sigh! Expensive training.. The fare about makes up 1.5 hrs of my pay :(

However, I'm kind of proud of myself on Saturdays. I have to be at the branch by 8.30am & for the past 2 weeks I've been punctual. Clap clap clap... The reason being I only need make sure that I hop onto this bus that'll bring me directly to my destination. The journey is slightly over half-an-hour. Hopefully once training ends & I get to start with the branch, my biological clock will be able to revert to its "normal" hours :)

Me & My Shoes

I really have a pair of "fussy" feet. Always have problems fitting to the right type of shoes. If it's not of proper fit, I'll either have sore feet, or I'll sprain them! Tragic, right?!! Sigh!

Actually I was rather happy that I'll be wearing "uniform" for my new job. But now I realised that it's very troublesome :( I'm expected to be in full-uniform at work!!!! Troublesome! Some more must wear shoes, covered, not exposed. And.. I am also expected to put on at least some light make-up. Boo hoo hoo..

Guess what? During these 10 days since I started with them, I broke 2 pairs of shoes. Woahahaha, right? Sigh! Either they are really lousy or I'm really heavy! Now I really don't know what to do with my feet (& probably my weight). Feel like chopping them off (yes, both)! And now I'm kind of limping because I think I've twisted my left ankle.. Yes, I'm really problematic. It's so difficult to get a good pair of comfortable shoes for ME. Is there no "perfect" working shoes out there for me???

Back in the "old" office.. new developments..

Well, for one they're having "renovations". HR, Finance & International have been "infiltrated" by foreign migrants :) Went back over the past 2 weekends.. Quite a bit of change at the back. A total of 4 rooms were added. And they've also changed the location of the back door! My, my..

And why on earth does SH want RR & AW to swap sitting locations I have no clue.. But I guess it's none of my business now :)

Then RR told me that over one of the conference calls, it was suggested that I be sent to the Philippines for the regional project.. (honestly, I'm kind of doubtful on what he said, but.. ha! heck care lah..) So since I'm no longer available, he will be taking my place instead. Good for him! At least finally his presence is felt in the department.. at least I hope it is :)

Sigh! I still need to go back & do the MAPP some day.. Hmmm.. Got to wait till I'm more settled lor..

Went back in the night on a few occasions.. either to pick-up or drop-off tapes, or to load the cable recording. Strange feeling with the girls.. They all seem so distant, even RR. Well, as I've always said.. C'est la vie!

Demise of an ex-relative-in-law..

Yes, she's had breast cancer long long ago but it's supposed to be cured. Then it seems there's a relapse & she's been on and off it for many many years.. This afternoon, received news that she passed away yesterday morning. C'est la vie!

Laziness to the ULTIMATE..

I think finally I have to admit that 我真的是个懒到极点的人！哈哈！其实真的是一点也不好笑，slothfulness 是万万要不得的！！看来我真的需要反省反省。Sigh..

为什么我会突然恍然大悟呢？应为我的心态真的是变了很多。。反正就是什么都不想去做。。真是“懒得出汁”！

This World is FULL OF INGRATES!

You can use all your heart & might to help others but when you need help, no one is in sight! Makes me wonder if I should continue to be who I am & do what I believe in!

My philosophy in life is whenever I make someone happy, I'll be happy too.. However, I noticed that many out there are making me very unhappy :(

Well, I guess such is the reality of life. Sad but true..
Simple poor little old me..

Continue with training.. till 15th.. except for Sats

Every weekday @Tampines 9am sharp! What a chore! Been yawning non-stop in class & dozing off on trains & buses.. What a life!

But on the flip side, I do enjoy learning new things here.. Kind of interesting to know what's on the other side of the counter :)

Olympics

• Technical 9.4
• Risk-taking 0.2
• Originality 0.2
• Virtuosity 0.2

Orientation Day

Tiring Monday! Had orientation back at head office the entire day! Pretty insightful. Tomorrow back to training centre..

With Deepest Sympathy..

If I'm not wrong, my cousin's tom-cat died either on Thurs or Fri. They are very sad & I believe are now coping with the loss. My condolences.. Well, at least he went fast & didn't suffer much. And the illness really didn't drag on like my Coke, Mac, & Lan-Lan. At least that saved them a bundle.

The Return of the Condor Heroes (China version)

Watching the China version of 神雕侠侶 on Channel U now. Sigh! Don't know what to say. Don't think it's going to be good. Never really thought much of 刘亦菲 & 黄晓明. Don't think she fits the role. For for latter, at least he does look a bit like his role. The only thing good about this series is the beautiful sceneries & some of the so-called special effects. But I don't like the way they deviated from the main storyline. The "heavenly couple" were too intimate right from the start. Doesn't look right at all. Contamination!

I still think looking at all those China's versions, by comparison, 射雕英雄传, the one with 周迅 & 李亚鹏 is a much much better interpretation of 金庸's "spirit". And in my opinion, by far, 陈玉莲 is still the most aptly-casted, most "perfect" 小龙女!

0830 Hrs

Expected to be at work by 8.30am. Rushed like mad! Walked such a long distance.. so much so that both my foot actually had blisters & one even bled. Good grief! Stupid shoes!

Spent 4 hrs watching others work. So fun :) But honestly, that person had no break at all. Poor thing one lor.. Next time I also like that, I'm sure :(

After work, walked to sister's shop. Took a pair of slippers from her & threw away my shoes. Feet pain!!!

Very tired. Never felt so tired for a very long time. The minute I'm on mrt or bus, I'll doze off. Walao lor.. Must really try to catch up on my sleep this weekend!

Training (Day 2)

Got up earlier this morning, managed to leave the house earlier too.. Yet, by the time I got to the mrt station, I was only about 10 mins earlier than yesterday. Decided not to risk as I definitly do not want to be late this morning! It's too risky to take the mrt & if I delay further, might not even get a cab as it started to drizzle! Took a cab from HDB Hub & arrived 5 mins before 9am. Phew! But what an expensive morning :(

Class ended even later today - at 6.30pm. Sorrowful lor! Took the mrt back & journey was close to an hour! Good grief! Dozed off so many times.. Malu lor..

Went back to old office to collect tapes for weekend recording. So heavy.. plus my training files were also so heavy.. Think I can just die of exhaustion liao..

Tomorrow must reach branch by 8.30am. Goodness gracious.. Someone out there is trying very hard to kill, er.. to train me.. Haha..

Training (Day 1)

I am really lousy with my time management. Either that or I really can't get up early morning! Supposed to arrive for training by 9am. But the journey was soooooo long..

Boarded the train at 8.30am but by 8.50am I was only on 3/4 of the journey. So I decide to get out of the mrt & take a cab instead. And, the cab journey took forever.. Sigh! Was about 10 mins late. Trainer emphasized that punctuality is very important.

Class ended at 6pm. Phew.. really long day.. Hopefully 明天会更好 :)

Oh, ex-boss actually asked me to join them today for dinner & karaoke after their strat-meeting but seems they ended the sessions early cz she was unwell & left halfway. For me, training ended rather late so I was also very tired. Didn't join them.

Decide to try taking the bus instead of the train in order to gauge the distance & travelling time. Good Lord! I was on the bus for more than an hour! Really torturous.. Kept dozing off.. Never felt so sleepy in public before.

Stopped over at old office to download recording & return tapes. Saw IZ working o/t. Poor girl!

I'm late! I'm late!

Supposed to report to HR at 8.45am but, as usual, was late! But the bank seems to be rather "disorganized" too! Anywayzz, all went rather well after that. Was actually rather relaxed today. After what I did for ex-boss yesterday, I felt kind of relieved.

Went to get my "uniform" today. None fit :( So got to custom-make. Haha.. Seems that they'll take my measurements & send over to Indonesia for tailoring. So funny! Got to wait one-month for it.

Finally found out that I'm an absolute MRT idiot! Kept "losing my way" today in both Raffles Place & City Hall mrts. Lost my sense of direction & kept taking the train going the opposite direction. A real MRT goon!

Done with briefing around 4pm. Relaxing day.. Heaven :)

Training starts tomorrow. Will last 2 weeks. Hope I can take this period to unwind my poor nerves & regain my strength & confidence. God, please bless me. Amen.

Feeling good..

Back in office around 3.30pm. Hopefully this is the last time I'm doing things for the regional project. Gave boss what she needed. Hope she's satisfied with it. Well, at least she responded by saying that it was "well done".. for once! Sigh!

Had to clear all my things for "Sir Arthur" & also decide to categorise & archive all my emails to the personal folder. Out-of-office message says that I'm on sabbatical leave. Now the only thing left is to finish off the MAPP thingy.. which will probably in another week or two.. and I'm done. Left office around 11.30pm.

Tomorrow got to be at PP's office by 8.45am. Hopefully I'll be on time :)

Absolutely broke!

Actually my intention was to buy a bottle of champagne or red wine to the office yesterday & celebrate my departure.. Haha.. 脱离苦海！But it didn't happen :( I didn't even manage to accept the girls' invitation to my last lunch in the office. So sad! I spent my time rushing through my BSF homework. Then I still had to finish off some last bit of handover details :( Plus I'm so broke I can also ill-afford that expense. Really tragic! Hahaha..

Perhaps I can still do that later when I "feel a little richer".. Hmmm.. Carry-on dreaming, woman.. Hohoho..

Cats

Recently, a friend of mine has been updating me on a cat he's found that's met with a tragic accident (I think). Seems that it has a fractured hip & will not be able to poo or pee for the rest of it's life. It's now with his vet & he is hoping to be able to save it's life, hoping to find someone to adopt it. But the caregiver will need to help the cat pee, by massaging it's kidneys to release the urine, and poo, by physically digging the faeces out from the anus, it seems. I honestly don't think he'll be able to find an "adopter" for this as we are talking about for the rest of the cat's life & it's probably going to be lying around most of the time due to the fractured hip, though it is not paralysed. Plus it's not been eating & is losing weight. The last I heard, it may just be put to sleep if the condition doesn't improve.

Another case is my cousin's cat. It seems their favourite tomcat is now suffering from kidney failure, condition aggrevated with acute gum problems. At least if the kidney condition is not too bad, the cat can still be treated with fluid infusion & he may still live on for a few good years. But the gum condition.. Sigh!. I've thought that the gums problems should be more easily treatable but it appears that that's not the case. So the last time I heard from cousin's wife was that the cat's having problems eating & vet said gums condition is very bad liao. He & his wife have been very affected by this. Sigh! This is what happens to catlovers all over.. It's heart-wrenching to see your loved one suffer & yet nothing much can be done. I've cried buckets over my cats' demise..

My vet would NEVER suggest euthanasia. However, I can't speak for the rest of those out there. To many, this is really the easiest way out. My vet would tell me that I should just do my best to spend the last days with my darling until he goes naturally.. Well, I guess it really depends on the state of health of the cat. Then again, we'll never know because the animal can't speak. Although it's called mercy-killing, killing is killing, regardless.. Euthanasia should really be the final resort. To date, I'm still rather affected by the decision of putting LanLan to sleep although sensibly I know it's really for the best of everyone.

Choose to be happy in advance..

Do you think this is possible? That in everything that we do, we decide in advance how we want to react to it before it even happens? When we do that, then we are genuinely able to "count our blessings", I believe. I've often thought that I've already adopted this way of doing things but over the past months, it seems that I've forgotten how. It's really been tough.

Thank God for the timely reminder. I want to be a happy person. I want the people around me to be happy too.. especially my loved ones :) For those who truly love me, I know that they will not be happy if I'm not. Hence, it's really important how I want to deal with my life as it would affect them too. And for those who do not give a dxxx of me, regardless of how I live my life, it would not affect them anyway :)

So, yes, I choose to give thanks everyday as it's already a gift to be able to wake up every morning to praise God's creations. I decide in advance that I want to be happy no matter what happens. I will look at life positively henceforth. Hallelujah! God is good!

hAPpY mAy daY!

This is the day whereby we celebrate "universal work stoppage".. Hahaha.. So why am I going back to work today?? Walao!!!! Bullied left, right & centre!