Bye, Lan Lan..

Much against my will, I've decided to put her to sleep. Extremely painful decision.

Brought her to SPCA this morning. She's been having seizures for the past 2 days.. Started from Oct 10. The timing was really bad. It's handover day! Everything was so rushed. Post-handover was also demanding, with "closing" & all, I really couldn't take time off for anything :( Plus financially I can really ill-afford prolonged treatment for her. Neither would I have the time nor energy due to the nature of this new job.

In pains us all to see her suffer when she has her fits. Mum & sis both highly stressed by this. Poor mum has been praying for her each time the attack came. After much deliberation, in view that there will be no support coming from any source, I guess this will be the best way for her to go.

I feel like a murderer.